After a while on an infusion, an even younger man appears and introduces himself as the anesthetist. He too starts with anesthetics and makes some vicious pricks in my arm, for which he first apologetically warns. Annoying pricks indeed! Then the anesthetist does his job.
A fluent middle-aged nurse soon steers my wheelchair to the operating theatre, where I am asked to sit on a cross-shaped bed, with my arms stretched out. There are a lot of young women circling around with cooing sounds and cheerful talk When I say I am going to be crucified, they say they have heard it before. They constantly make jokes to reassure the patient and make sure that a blue raised blanket on the side where the hand has to be cut and sewn prevents looking. In this way, they take away the patient’s negative, fearful suggestion. I don’t have to see it! I do have to indicate whether the pain is becoming too great. But that is not the case. I bite my teeth. I feel the young surgeon’s fine voice with its rolling “r” scratching, snapping, nudging. She has a cheerful voice and so she undermines the tension she herself would suffer.
It is done!
Then the room is cleared, I am given encouraging words of bravery, put in the chair and driven away, for an hour of rest and recuperation.
In the corridor another young woman takes over, who abruptly tears the protective net from my head without any questions or notice. Why?
The other patients are sitting in the room with their protective nets still on, also men, strange!
And suddenly, my companion of the dawn reappears and tells me that everything went well for her. She is delighted.
She can take the red socks with the anti-slip studs home, her wish! A fetish?
I return to my locker and hear the voice of Ann who was supposed to pick me up, … reassuring!
I explain to her where to find my car, put the parking ticket in the slot and pay 5€ for my place during the shoot.
A bit further on, in the street, Marc is waiting to drive me home. He is surprised that I just found him on the street. Not like that, on the instructions of Ann who pointed out his place.
Then I did it!